The feeling of guilt is real, but it is also what makes it kinky. At the end of the day, do what is comfortable enough for you, otherwise, it could be mentally challenging for yourself.
Nice sharing so far! Pls continue.
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Ok now I need to come clean with something - I'm actually very religious. This might surprise you given all the naughty things I've done. But faith has always been a big part of my life. Growing up I was very involved in cell groups, bible studies, church camps and all that. So you can imagine that that there was a lot of conflict between these two aspects of my life.
For example I would spend the night fucking myself with whatever I toy I had at home. Then in the morning I would feel so so guilty, but when I go to church I'll feel better, like cleansed of my sins. Then I would feel like hey everything is alright! It felt like it gave me permission to be a slut. In fact I would say all my slutty behaviour made me am outstanding Christian - I was trying to compensate for my sins!
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
A common question I get asked is why I am doing this! So I'll just say it here. I'm kind of in a low point in my life now and, writing out my past experiences like this is somewhat therapeutic. It also turns me on talking about what I've done, and I like the attention
I totally understand the part on low points in life.
Take breaks in your life and focus on the positive things around you. Try some breathing exercises and don't be too bothered about finding the right guy for the moment.
Life is a mystery and so we all face the same mystery as it comes.
Life is about ups and downs. We just need to manage them accordingly.
Either on our own or by talking to someone we trust and can look up to. Just remember not to treat that other person like a dump, when you are happy and high spirited, share the joy with that person too.
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I had an ex- Fwb whom I had a similar experience but non religious .
We were colleagues but non in the office knew we had Fwb r/s .
In one of the work days , i inserted a small vibrator in her prior to meeting . She had to wriggle though a 45 mins meeting with the vibrator in her .
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Originally Posted by playplayonly99
Ok now I need to come clean with something - I'm actually very religious. This might surprise you given all the naughty things I've done. But faith has always been a big part of my life. Growing up I was very involved in cell groups, bible studies, church camps and all that. So you can imagine that that there was a lot of conflict between these two aspects of my life.
For example I would spend the night fucking myself with whatever I toy I had at home. Then in the morning I would feel so so guilty, but when I go to church I'll feel better, like cleansed of my sins. Then I would feel like hey everything is alright! It felt like it gave me permission to be a slut. In fact I would say all my slutty behaviour made me am outstanding Christian - I was trying to compensate for my sins!
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
Ok now I need to come clean with something - I'm actually very religious. This might surprise you given all the naughty things I've done. But faith has always been a big part of my life. Growing up I was very involved in cell groups, bible studies, church camps and all that. So you can imagine that that there was a lot of conflict between these two aspects of my life.
For example I would spend the night fucking myself with whatever I toy I had at home. Then in the morning I would feel so so guilty, but when I go to church I'll feel better, like cleansed of my sins. Then I would feel like hey everything is alright! It felt like it gave me permission to be a slut. In fact I would say all my slutty behaviour made me am outstanding Christian - I was trying to compensate for my sins!
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
That lasted about a week.
First and foremost, congrats on taking your first step to explore what I called "discreet public humiliation". You don't have to feel guilty. You may be surprised that you are not the only girl who did that in a church setting. There are more kinky stuff many girls have did in the church. Such as rope bondage underneath innocent clothing, without any bra and panty. Yes, if you are imagining, those perky nipples will be protruding out of their clothes. Some even have both anal plug and vibrating bullet buzzing inside their pussy at the same time. Some could even get their legs jelly throughout the session. Rather than managing these alone, it will be better to have a partner in crime who can push you through these kinky situations as well as to keep you safe.
YOLO. Especially, when you are still young with a great body to play with. There are more to explore out. I hope this will not discourage you from exploring but to stay safe.
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FAQs!
A common question I get asked is why I am doing this! So I'll just say it here. I'm kind of in a low point in my life now and, writing out my past experiences like this is somewhat therapeutic. It also turns me on talking about what I've done, and I like the attention
I'm single FYI.
People have been asking to chat on tele but my tele is not anonymous (as in can see my face and name) so I can't talk there. If you have good ideas about some other anonymous messaging let me know.
Frequency of masturbating: depends on mood lor. Some times will be everyday, even twice a day. Sometimes can go a week without doing anything.
Yes I still stay with my mum and sis, and yes we still don't wear a lot of clothes around each other at home.
There are a few anonymous messaging such as kik, wechat, teams, discord. If you are keen, we can chat more and I would like to give you my attention. No doubts, I do have lots of evil thoughts of your body.
My absolute lowest point was when I went to church with a buttplug in me. I was 17 at the time. I was wearing an innocent white dress, sleeveless, that reached below the knees. But below I wasn't wearing any panties. The buttplug wasn't that stimulating, in fact it kinda hurt whenever I sit or squatted down - but the situation of me being plugged up in the House of God was so humiliating but so arousing then throughout the whole time I could feel pussy fluid dripping down my thigh. Worst of all I was leading prayer for one part in front a congregation of about 100 people. I was saying and singing the Grace of God while being filled in my butt, with cream dripping out of my naked pussy onto the floor....I fucking couldn't believe I managed to get through that. I got home and legit cried cause I felt so guilty lol. I sweared I'll stop doing slutty things from them on.
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